It is officially over. May 16, 2008

A lot has happened in the last week but I just haven’t felt like writing.  Last week Glenn called me.  He isn’t supposed to but he did anyway.  He can do this now cause he was moved to the halfway house so he has more freedom.  I missed his first call but he left me a message and told me he would call back but if I didn’t want to talk to him he totally understood.  So I spent the rest of that day fretting about what I was going to say to him.  I didn’t know if I wanted to talk to him or not.  Eventually he called and we talked for a long time.  As always he was funny, smart, and witty.  I wished he wasn’t cause it would have made my life easier.  We talked about how this last couple of months I have made more friends than I had made in my past 2 1/2 years at school.  This is because I’m not run by his intense jealousy.  In the past I didn’t feel like explaining who I was going out with, what I was doing, and when I would be back every time I had plans so I just didn’t go out.  We talked about lots of other things but most importantly we talked about our status.  He asked me where I stand and I told him that I love him whole heartedly and entirely but this relationship would eat me alive if stayed in it.  So, after all of this time, we are officially broken up.  He was great about it.  He said that he totally understood and that he just wanted me to be happy.  It was a great conversation but it was horrifyingly sad.  I told him that if he was ok with it I would like it if he called me the next week at the same time.  That was Tuesday night.  I thought it was supposed to be 8 and he thought it was supposed to be 9.  When he didn’t call by 8:45 I jumped in the shower.  Of course he called while I was showering.  He also called the next day and I didn’t have my phone with me.  He left me a message saying that he got the message by me not answering and he wouldn’t call again.  I’m so sad about that.