Despite the fact that I have been sad about officially breaking up with Glenn, I know it is the right decision. This was solidified in my mond when I spoke to his nce counselor this week. I haven’t spoken to her in about two weeks so I haden’t recieved any updates. The last I heard he was living in the halfway house on the grounds of the facility he did his inpatient at. He had some freedom because he was supposed to get a job and was responsible for going to meetings. He had family week last week and his father and step mother came down for the week. His counselor said that they were under the impression that it went well. Apparently last week they got a positive drug test on Glenn. He is so adament that he didn’t use but it’s almost impossible to get a false posotive in the type of test they did. They got an original posotive that showed an opiate in his system. They analyzed it further and determined that it was a morphine derivitave that he took. The more specific analysis is the one that doesn’t usually get false posotives. They have moved him back to the highest level of care, which is inpatient where they are monitored all the time.
This is why I am glad that I did it. I have spent nine years being optimistic and then getting disappointed and I don’t want to do it anymore. I can’t do it anymore. I plan on continuing to talk to his counselor and write to him if he writes to me but I am satisfied with my decision. This does not make it any easier or less painful but it does make me feel better about it.
Sounds like you made the right descision. I know it’s not always easy during a breakup but you just gotta keep reminding yourself why you are doing it. It is hard somedays and easy on others. I recommend you do NOT continue to speak to his counselor or write to him. It just keeps the emotions conflicting for even longer. Good luck with whatever you choose though.