I don’t even know what to say. It has been forever since I posted. This last 12 months has kicked my ass! I am exhausted. I just got over being ridiculously sick. They don’t know what was wrong with me but I was throwing up blood and it was awful. A few days ago my dog, who I whole heartedly adore, broke his leash and attacked a neighbor dog. He didn’t just pick a fight with the dog, he tried to kill him. We are desperately looking for a home for him because it isn’t fair for the other dog owners in the neighborhood to be in perpetual fear when he is out. Really, could anything be more terrible?
So in the last 12 months I found out that my boyfriend of 8 years was a heroin addict, i broke up with my boyfriend, I watched my grandmother die of cancer, I was insanely sick, my mom lost her job and now I am having to get rid of my dog. What the fuck?!?! How am I supposed to keep an optimistic view when this is what goes on in my life. My current boyfriend said to me about a month ago “I’m so sorry you are having this string of bad luck.” It made me laugh a little and I looked at him and said “You haven’t known me for long enough to realize that this isn’t a string of bad luck. It is my life.” How can I be anything other than exhausted and discouraged?
I just finished reading you blog. My boyfriend of 3 yrs is currently in rehab for alcoholism.
From what I read, you are a strong woman! You’ve been through alot, don’t beat yourself up. Bad days happen. I’m so sorry about your dog. Hope you can find a new home for him.
Hang in there! This to shall pass!